Today I went to Lake Pointe for the youth group worship night and it was really good. I loved having a couple of hours just to be silent and focus my heart on God and everything, such a cool thing they do. I wish we had those all the time, their so good. I've really been enjoying my personal quiet times with God lately though and I'm just so excited about this life of following after God and seeing where He takes me - there's nothing better!! I didn't used to like candles very much, but just the other night I lit one in my room and just watched it for awhile and prayed before I went to bed and it was so peaceful and good. So I bought a big, good smelling candle the other day and I pretty much light it every night for a little bit before I fall asleep. Today has been a crazy busy day, but I'm not even gonna go into it because I talked about the best and most important part of my day and that's all that really matters. <3

Today's been pretty boring, just did a bunch of school and cleaning and such, but I feel good 'cause I got a lot done. I took the dog on a walk but it was FREEZING outside, its crazy. I wish there was snow on the ground if its gonna be this cold. I'm going out to dinner with Melissa in a little bit and that should make my day better, I always enjoy talking to her. I'm reading through John right now and its SO good!!! Its so full of all these promises and I love that Jesus talks so much in that book, its so exciting. Last night, I seriously couldn't stop reading chapters and I just wanted to read them over and over again. I can't believe that just a couple of years ago I thought the Bible was so boring and struggled to get anything out of it, its so different now and I love it!!!!

Rely on God

I like posting things on my blog but I also don't at the same time. I guess I like writing so I keep doing this, but I don't like to write anything really deep or personal because I feel like everyone can see this. Anyways, that was just a quick thought I wanted to share before everything else.

So lately God's been teaching me to rely on Him and not on other people, but I'm still in the process of learning and changing and its hard. I noticed that whenever things would come up and I would struggle then my first thing would be to talk to other godly people, I would talk about God and ask questions about God, but then I wouldn't really spend much time talking TO God. I've been depending so much on other people to satisfy me with their encouragement and wisdom and comfort, but then I would go away frustrated and disappointed every time because they wouldn't be able to satisfy me. In other words, I was counting on other people to do what only God can do. It doesn't even make sense to me, like why would I go to an imperfect human who God made instead of going straight to God who has all the wisdom and comfort and encouragement and power and everything else that I so desparately need?? I still don't understand, but some how we seem to think that people can satisfy us. How foolish. I'm still struggling with this and working on going to God a lot more with everything, but its hard. We are made to rely on God, its what were supposed to do, and when we don't then things get really messed up and were never satisfied, just frustrated.

Long days

These past couple of days have been long and kinda exhausting. Yesterday I worked from 7:30-5ish. It wasn't too bad, 'cause I bundled the kids up and we went out to play in the snow for a bit, so that helped the day go better. And then I came home and got on the computer, ate dinner, took a shower, went over correcting school with my mom, played sequence, spent some time with God and went to bed. Today I had to work 8-4 and it was a long day, I didn't have the patience to be with the kids and I was so tired. And on top of that we were stuck in the house all day because it was pouring snow and we couldn't go out to play. But the snow is pretty and I liked seeing it come down. Anyways, I was happy to leave. Then I went home and got on the computer and grabbed some stuff and then headed over to Hannah's. They were making yummy things in the kitchen when I got there, actually they were finishing up. So I helped put things away and clean up a little bit. And then we went upstairs and sat there and I tried to decorate my mugs but didn't get very far - I finally did decorate the one for my mom, now I only have about 7 more to go. ha. So we talked for a little bit. Then we went downstairs and I stayed and did advent with their family and then I came home. And this is a really boring post, but Hannah wasn't happy with me because I haven't been writing anything, so I told her I would and I couldn't think of anything better to write about. And now I'm starving because its almost 9pm and I haven't eaten anything since lunch. Next time I'll try to think of something better to write. :)