Rely on God

I like posting things on my blog but I also don't at the same time. I guess I like writing so I keep doing this, but I don't like to write anything really deep or personal because I feel like everyone can see this. Anyways, that was just a quick thought I wanted to share before everything else.

So lately God's been teaching me to rely on Him and not on other people, but I'm still in the process of learning and changing and its hard. I noticed that whenever things would come up and I would struggle then my first thing would be to talk to other godly people, I would talk about God and ask questions about God, but then I wouldn't really spend much time talking TO God. I've been depending so much on other people to satisfy me with their encouragement and wisdom and comfort, but then I would go away frustrated and disappointed every time because they wouldn't be able to satisfy me. In other words, I was counting on other people to do what only God can do. It doesn't even make sense to me, like why would I go to an imperfect human who God made instead of going straight to God who has all the wisdom and comfort and encouragement and power and everything else that I so desparately need?? I still don't understand, but some how we seem to think that people can satisfy us. How foolish. I'm still struggling with this and working on going to God a lot more with everything, but its hard. We are made to rely on God, its what were supposed to do, and when we don't then things get really messed up and were never satisfied, just frustrated.